“To the faithful you show yourself faithful,
to the blameless you show yourself blameless,
27 to the pure you show yourself pure,
but to the devious you show yourself shrewd.
28 You save the humble,
but your eyes are on the haughty to bring them low.
29 You, Lord, are my lamp;
the Lord turns my darkness into light.
30 With your help I can advance against a troop;
with my God I can scale a wall."
I almost didn't stay. I almost walked away from the metaphorical wall. I have walked away from walls many times before. And I always end up feeling failure, making excuses and then it becomes a theme in my life. What say You?? Well I will be brutally honest. I am tired. Shut- I am beyond tired. I am always trying to find a way to take a nap these days, even in the car at the red light!! :)
When my husband decided to not up hold his vow till death do us part, I was in total break down mode. I believed him when he told me I would never accomplish my goals. In the in between spaces in my heart, his lies about me where lodged in, even though I kept moving forward, there was always this voice in the background saying, "you suck, you're just lucky, this is all going to end someday when someone figures out you really don't GOT IT!"
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path" Psalm 119:105. That is where I was able to see Him keep His promises to me, as I had to trust Him without seeing the entire way before me, only where my next steps needed to go.